Monday, February 20, 2006
i feel like i am hanging on by just a thread to everything in my life. i am sucking as a girlfriend by being snappy at mike, i am so tired and have a headache every single day, nothing to do at work so i am online, i am cramming with my school work to keep caught up.....i am crabby. i have been crabby for the past few weeks i think. i want to take back all of the mean remarks and looks i have given mike that he hasn't deserved. i want to be more understanding and have more energy to do everything that i want so that i can feel that my life is balanced...but for some reason i dont think it will happen. i want to quit feeling bloated and only eat the 'right' things for me. i want to be able to laugh and laugh again without feeling immediately upset or uncomfortable. what happened to our friend group? why can't we seem to all just go out and have a good time.... it is like we are all grown up already and dont have time for one another. like we can't get a night away from all of our 'significant others' and laugh and have a great time like we used to. i feel that things have gotten too complicated and it is hard to just have fun now. i saw a girl with a shirt on that said 'life is good', i thought to myself 'i would not wear that today'. that is my mood for today....not sure why but i feel that i am drowning beneath all of my responsibilities and burdens.
|ericadawn |4:50 PM|
