Tuesday, November 29, 2005
i didn't have a flirtini, i didn't get to go workout and i didn't get much homework done AT ALL.....the flirtinis got replaced with 2.5 miller lites, and the workout was replaced with pushing my mom's car out of the snow and all the way up the driveway. a great thing with lemarr is that when we fight, we resolve it and it is done right then and there. we just lay around and laugh and pick on eachother now...he worries about me driving on the roads, and he would rather drive to my house in the foot of snow instead of me walking the three blocks by myself. but we both do what we want, and at the end of the day we spend time in eachothers company...defintely the best thing that goes on. he asks me at the end of the night what i will be doing the following night, i say 'nothing' and when i ask him what he is doing he says 'hopefully hanging out with you'. he does things that i dont agree with, i smell it when i walk into his house. i probably drink too much in his eyes also, he doesn't think i should work out as much, and definitely doesn't agree when i say i am trying to diet....but we don't push things on eachother, we don't think of the bad things that we don't agree on. laughing in eachother's company is enough for now. even though we have had stress and arguements already it happens when we are drinking.....he chases after me when i start walking away....he doesn't think i am stupid afterward either, and when i stick to my feelings when i wake up sober the next day he apologizes again.
kelly, try and have fun with him without thinking what you are doing wrong..or why it isn't the same anymore. things are so much better without the stress....if you think he is treating you like any other girl then don't be with him. it is too early for that, and it shouldn't ever happen anyways. have fun, try and trust others. don't feel that just by having fun and hanging out with someone you have to share your innermost secrets. i love you, don't let him make you feel unimportant....
|ericadawn |3:21 PM|
