Monday, August 15, 2005
why do i feel akward and almost embarassed when people ask me why i moved to ohio? is it the fact that i feel stupid, or idiotic for admitting i had moved to live with my boyfriend. He had asked me to marry him and I had said yes, but there was no ring so it wasn't official, we had planned on possibly doing it this summer even, my life has lead me down a different path than what i had planned even six months ago. i have changed for the better i believe, realized what i want, love and need and then what i will not put up with. but even though it has helped me grow and be who i am, i am embarassed answering the question with 'to live with my boyfriend'. someday it will be a good story to tell my children....i don't feel that i had moved away really except when i have to explain why i still have two years left of school, yesterday i saw a guy on the street when i was driving that i thought looked really familiar, i swore i had seen him before, and i realized he had looked like a guy i had worked with in columbus.....somebody thousands of miles away. it was weird, it felt surreal (not in a good way) and i guess the good memories find their way in but most of the time the bad ones don't. So unlike the saying 'The grass is greener on the other side of the fence...' I am just
fine here.
|ericadawn |8:53 PM|
